"F@*$ YOU CANCER, YOU HAVE NO POWER HERE.'

I, like you, have said at one point or another 'I hate (fill in the blank).' In retrospect I'm not sure I ever really meant it.
 
But tonight, at this exact moment I am certain, as abusive as it is to allow such a negative emotion into my life, I am screaming on the inside I HATE CANCER!
 
It's destroyed / destroying my life.
 
I've watched a vibrant child fade slowly away; a loving grandmother finally give in; my powerful-strong mother, cry helplessly in my arms.

Now I watch my grandmother ripped of her golden years, those that should be spent care-freely enjoying her grand-children, laughing and living life, instead 9 hours are spent testing, and receiving blood transfusions, in a cold emotionless hospital room.  

And, when all of the days treatments are done, there is no good-job, hang in there slugger; instead your faced with a good luck and we hope you feel better.
 
You can sure bet that the ride home hasn't changed: the stores are all open, city blocks lined with smiling faces; It's a contradiction my mind will never wrap itself around.
 
As hard as it is to allow hate to exist in my heart, I will never stop hating this nasty, evil disease. As the hatred grows it will make me stand taller and reach further and do everything in my power so that someday instead of I Hate Cancer, I will be screaming 'F@*$ YOU CANCER, YOU HAVE NO POWER HERE.'